thoughts not to be wasted on dreaming.=)

     Perhaps before this if i was intended to write something,i would suddenly thought of a topic and starts membebel.But this i’m so eager to write what i’ve done last 2 days.

     Last sunday,i just got back home from yayasan camp by 8pm.Solat n everything trus g mamak tgk MU vs MC.Could u imagine how tired i was?but because of the desire to hangout with my friends,it wasnt a bad idea at all.hehe.because MU won.woooo.=p.heh.But i haven’t pack anything for ASC(accounting student conference),so after mamak i straightly started packing(it ws 2 days event) n so wasnt intended to ulang alik dari rumah,gonna sleptover dkat uia(zubair) dgn ss(2 org je woo).I finished packing around 3am and need to wake up by 6am at least because by 6.30am supposed dh gerak(bak kata ss).By 6am i received sms from ss to wake up,well i woke up 10 minutes after that.He fetched me by 7am n we reached uia almost at 8am.Registerd and everything, little shocked when we’ve been told number of uia students yg joined conference nie so little compared to other universities.Luckily all the committees were IIU’s.So i have this thought,is it IIUM students not interested in joining or lack of promotion to IIUM students itself.(i knew through the website,is it they depending on one channel?haish.poor management).

.monday morning juga.

     Talking about the objectives of the program,mmg agak beneficial juga.Btw,it was a weird thought to joined such conference in e middle of holiday,but i did look from a positive side.hah.erm.Guess only me n ss from our batch,i didnt see others(as particpant)

.monday morning.

 from our batch except ama.Yerp,i can’t deny ASC was too bored for a guy like me but tuesday session was damn inspiring my old dreams.1st day of ASC was like ergh…i slept during the 1st talk..then we divided into group(mine n ss in BLACK).well,e group wasnt dat great tapi oklar.During 2nd talk(financial freedom) i was like discussing bout ‘jambatan’(e task been given for the group).We kept discussing and changing the design over and over again,at first i was like quite excited but after too much words rather than opinion from others,i chose to remain silent,beside penat camp YTAR pun x hbis lagi.i just went along with the group decision(i chose to be a random follower).Then after 2nd talk,glar wat ‘jambatan’ tu.hah.at last our jambatan was the most weird,small n less potential to be chosen as the best one.I dont really mind of winning,but i do mind when a

jambatan sengal

leader failed to achieved at least an average achievement.MOTS,Be a leader if you believe the leader that u chose wasnt unable to lead u eventhough u have give much advice,patience and consideration to him.
(im not perfectionist,it just i don’t like to be unorganized) .tiba2 emotional pula.hehe.

     While everyone was working on completing ‘jambatan’(i dont like bridge,because jambatan sounds more classic).My result for last sem xm came out and i received few mssgs(from xtau malu friends) asking how is my result.how could i know i was in e middle of completing the sengal ‘jambatan’?.

black group(e darkest group)

asc dinner

bella luna~~~

                  It has been the busiest 5 days in my life diz holiday.Mark from friday till tuesday.I spent my time for unintended beneficial activities.Last friday,i went to Yayasan Tunku Abdul Rahman(YTAR) Camp till sunday.It was a camp meant for e 3rd batch.hrmm.It is compulsory for all.so i need n have to go there without any option.here e story goes

We supposed to met at KL sentral at 2.15.So i prayed at Masjid Kg. Bharu n later to KL sentral,pretty bad i n my friend were the last to get into the bus.haha.it was because the lrt had some problem and we were to be blame back then.Glad them(others who were waiting) were quite sporting and don’t really bother about it.E camp was held at Janda Baik.It was a pretty cool place.E journey?come on lar bro,it was around 35-40 minutes je,nothing much nak cerita pun.

        The camp?cool.’Dare To Be Excellence’ sounds a lil bit enthusiastic but it seems right for us.Nothing much,the Tunku’s scholars mixed well and i already knew some of them time dkat upm dlu.But here we get to know each other more as it is a 3-days camp.The activity,wasnt that lame.oklar.quite relax.At first i was feeling quite uncomfortable with them,inferiority complex.Could u imagine being around with people who have 3.90++ all around?sure i felt like i don’t deserved to be with them.Those scholars are well behaving and seems to have those right attributes to be Tunku Scholars.But me?I’m a guy who doesnt really care to be a perfect person,playfool all around,and bla3,the point?i was more like e invisible guy(like d in gssp girl..haha).i was feeling a little inferior back then and  became a silent person during the camp but it doesnt suit me well.However later,my immatured behavior seems to came out as i starting to behaving like myself(teasing others all around).

          The good thing about the camp is,they inspired me to really feel that i could be one of them with just one thing to add on.attitude.attiTUDE,ATTITUDE.hey.they dont skip classes,but i did.so i wont next semesters.(last sem i even received warning letter).i never studied early,so i will next sem.hehe.i never put full effort,so i will next sem insYAllah.i wasnt serious in my study,next sem i will and so i was like being motivated enough throughout & after this camp(like e old days time matric).heish.after 3 days,sunday by 5.30 i was back at KL sentral again and after that i just need to get prepared for monday ASC(Accounting STudents Conference) at UIA tercinta d pagi hari at 7am.thats e end of e camp.But siyezly,i was tired enough.=)

p/s : if u remember i wrote a blog about excitement(where excitement as motivation).guess what…during the camp,e consultant(in-house psychologist) stated general meaning of motivation is excitement!!!.it was like miracle gler,my opinions is facts actually.but i guess thats how knowledge comes.through thoughts.in different ways.=)

Allah Knows Best.=p

   Particularly West acknowledged the term awfulizing (i’ve found it in my reading ) which means an idea that any relaxation in standards or vigilance is the first step toward failure,degradation and the collapse of civilization.I was attracted to the term~awfulizing but somehow not sure what i’ll be writing on.But perhaps, i’ll try to reflect the term in Islamic view.

   Since you were born , a set of manifestation of guideline how ur future life should be would mainly set up or bold by ur parents. After sometime, if your behaviours and actions reflecting the guidelines, your parents would say ‘Thank God,we have followed the right way’.But if the result of your behaviours and actions seems to be far from what they have expected, your parents would be in situation so called dissapointment.Hey,don’t dissapoint your parents too often.=)

    What does matter is how we act when we’ve been told by our parents what to do. Vary in ages ,response from us also differ.I’ve noticed that my writing seems to be too formal like this post meant for Parenting CCAC subjects,so let me make it general.People,when refuse after were told what to do by others will resulted in two responses ,

1st-overt -straightly im not going to do it or 2nd-passive+aggressive- i forgot.

 these two responses surely lead to common frustration for those who gave the order/instruction.But why too often we refuse too hear others advice,opinion,thoughts,orders & instruction by directly not too follow them without at first place comparing our own with them.Stubborn?Ego?Status?Riya’?.whatever the answers is,we still are not easily to perceived and instructed to other words.Some might felt he himself already posses enough ability to make his own decision/opinion without expecting words form others, or even if he still want to listen others words , he always failed to received a helpful thoughts to be worked on.Or,even other words are obviously better than yours, there’s a sceptical minded that won’t let you accept the words as a total.and there are other explanation for this circumstances depending what variables you used on but mostly it would be your behaviour itself.

   So come the conclusion, what merely is inside your mind when people start talking ?, what reactions or responses you would give? reactions may vary between different people as when you with your lecturer, you might taking each word came from his/her mouth seriously(especially bila nak xm) , but with your friends you might considering listening or not to because merely they will talk bout the same thing over and over again and it goes with different people.another question, do you give the right reactions or responses to the words?.perhaps you did but MOSTLY you aren’t.

It was narrated on the authority of Abu Najih al-Irbad bin Sariyah, radiyallahu ‘anhu, who said:

The Messenger of Allah,

sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam, delivered an admonition that made our hearts fearful and our eyes tearful. We said, “O Messenger of Allah, it is as if this were a farewell sermon, so advise us.” He said, “I enjoin you to have Taqwa of Allah and that you listen and obey, even if a slave is made a ruler over you. He among you who lives long enough will see many differences. So for you is to observe my Sunnah and the Sunnah of the rightly-principled and rightly-guided successors, holding on to them with your molar teeth. Beware of newly-introduced matters, for every innovation (bid’ah) is an error.”

[Abu Dawud & Al-Tirmidhi, who says it is an authentic hadith]

Based on above hadith, what it has to do with this post?look at the bold word.’listen’ an ‘obey’ even if a slave is made ruler above you.My thought is,regardless who are you listening too,take every words seriously eventhough it may or may not beneficial,you can ignore those  unbeneficial words after u analyse it.Don’t take words too easily,as Qur’an & Hadith effectively disseminate by words ,but don’t take it too exremely if the words seems to be words that can make you astray from Allah s.w.t.He Knows Best.amiin.

p/s:i noticed my post seems to be inconsistent with the post title,i’ll try to make sure i’ll write more clearly in the next post.saya semakin mengarut hari demi hari.=(

Often i felt i failed to understand people or it just me who over-do to understand them.the question is,do we need to understand people???

‘HabluminAllah wa Hablumminannas’

Islam taught us how significant to build relationship not with Allah solely,but also relationship with human.Well,e concept of Fardhu Kifayah explained everything.But what kind of relationship should we built on?hye n bye friends?soulmate friends?sehidup semati friends?or get along friends?my answer,whatever it goes…

Some are suit to be one of many kinds(relationship) or sometime few kinds at once.Sekarang aku dah mengarut.I guess what i want to write is about, Girl Best Friend .

I got one so called best friend,well she’s more like the one who really accept me the way i am ~annoying,big teaser,childish,emo n bla2(i guess u like me to confessd this.haha).We spent time studying together,studying for real.fyi,she’s my tutor for cm and im her study partner for ca.=).I’ve tried to keep ourself to be seen by others but unfortunately we failed.so i guess we just be ourself.Why should i be afraid if we’re nothing more than besties?so we go on studying at public place.=p.But lately i guess others perceived it differently,they thought us as couple.S.E.N.G.A.L.AT first i really don’t take it seriously but when it goes to bad(everyone teasing me here & there),hey!i need to voice out something.Explaining here n there that we are nothing more than besties gave nothing much different as they said a denial is a approval of public thought.so i guess biarlar apa orang nak cakap,it’s theirs(mouth) and words meant nothing for me because i know the truth.

One day, i called a good friend of mine bout cm but end up discussing something else,bout my bestie. She said it was to obvious that we practically being as a couple.S.E.N.G.A.L.honest!!!we met only for study purposes,except one day out with her(not a date).calls & sms?erm.of course she’s my bestie.she knows me well.and we know we aren’t meant more than that.sweet & flirty words tu meant nothing lor,it just words.So she said if we don’t want public to perceived as couple,we shouldnt act like one.I take her words at first,but iguess my way is better.be urself.as long as she’s my best friend and nothing more.good enough for me.=p~

person i like most hate me most.=)

So this is my words for those who have odd lame narrow thoughts of relationship,don’t define couple when they are together, lovers n bla3.In islam just have two words for boys/girls relationship , husband & wife or friends.~end

I’m feeling i’m so talking rubbish at e moment.=)

Salam.It hs been a long time i didn’t write anything in this lame empty blog,so now i’m writing one.Well,it’s a new semester has begun which means there will be new stories,new drama,,new affairs to be happened,or i guess already happened…=) This semester started so slow,for me i guess,slow in terms of catching of the spirit of studying.Now i’m in e 6th week kot,i already skipped 9 classes,3 fiqh 2 classes, 3 cost mgt, 2 foundation of islamic economics((fie) classes and leadership twice.sounds ugly huh?well,i guess dats just so me.LAZY 24 hours.still finding e spirit,or maybe i already have it but hmm still ikutkan hati sangat.SO i was wondering,y did i became so lazy?; 1)programs that i’ve joined?…no…it doesnt effect me… 2)my other activities?…no…not dat busy…. 3)i’m just LOST?…yez… So i wondering,am i becoming a munafiq?my words weren’t e same as what i’ve did.My friends said i have nothing to be worry on because i’m smart.SENGAL.i’m not smart,not dat intelligent.i’ve got ol those A’s from ALLAH,not based on my effort.If i do measure my result solely from my effort,my cgpa wouldn’t even reach 3.So,it’s e ‘Rahmah’ from Allah to me.you received Rahmah maybe in different ways.your physical appearences,your natural akhlaq,your spouse and bla3.so do not assume u get something because u deserved it.NO!!!,Because Allah gave u the chance to received it.so?be grateful.=).because He can take it away so easily.My point is i still have to study hard to get good knowledge.e Grades???.leave it to Allah.=).Ur good grades doesn’t mean u r better than OTHERS,NO!!!.It just mean u r different in some ways.Always remember,everyone is always better than u.Don’t do something to ‘redha from human’(doing something good to be praised) but do something to get ‘redha from ALLAH swt’(it’s eternal praise).

p/s:please take note e flow of the blog aren’t related to each other because sometimes i wrote it because "thoughts not to be wasted on dreaming’.hehehehe..=)

        2nd July 2008.ada gak line dkat rumah aku. Yesterday I’ve got my result. Ya Allah syukur mmg syukur,tapi sedih gler.it was such a disappointment . Really,i wish i could change e result. Even it takes me to do something crazy. After some time,i took a break and just went to play football to get rid of the feeling(damn sad) ,but it(damn sad feeling) hasn’t end yet I failed to score a goal when I almost could. Conclusion, I was having the same feeling that I felt when I saw my result.

I’m using formality in my writing so it isn’t real as what my thought is. People say those who really struggle to score in exams are exam oriented. Well,it is true for some of them. But do i mention some of them? ,what about the others? .Obviously ,the others aren’t .So, what makes them so eager to score? I would say an excitement.=)

Excitement is a feeling which i take as a deep motivation.It is when u feel u have done something great for you(not for others),some people find the excitement when they hang-out with their friends,excitement when they doing something so favourable,excitement when they were watching Euro ‘08(at s15 when italy won!!=p) or even excitement when they do ‘ibdh’.For sure the last one is the biggest excitement after all. This feeling-excitement could be desireable or undesireable.could lead to something good or something bad .When there is no excitement in doing something, it is like stars n moon never exist at night .For me(as this blog is for me),i take my level of excitement doing something as my motivation driver. apa yang aku mengarut nie?. well, when i play football, it isn’t just e goal that u are looking for at e end of e day, but how u have performed the whole day ,I value the excitement from e overall game ,how many times I’ve stopped e attacker,how many times i’ve assist my teammates and surely the biggest excitement i felt is when I’ve scored e goal by myself. Believe it or not, when I’ve scored ,my feeling isn’t much different when i’ve scored in my exams(except sem 3 08). It was a great feeling, rsa nk sujud syukur pn ada(it was over-done if i really did that msa main bola).So, when i woke up every morning i look 4 excitement that i can achieve today and snap!!!, I got so motivated the whole day. Lately during this holiday, football will be the solution most of e day, some of the days excitement comes from different activities. Yesterday i thought my excitement would come from e result but it wasn’t after all. However, failed to grab e excitement could be another motivation to reach another excitement. So don’t worry of failing in achieving ur excitement, just don’t let u fall down, And manipulate whatever pre or proceeds from those excitement to achieve what we supposed to achieve.

Norman Vincent Peale in his book ‘The Positive Principle Today’, stated one of its twelve specific ways to keep positive principle going is by holding the thought that nothing can get you down. insyAllah.

p/s: be positive at e end of e day.=)

Life is full of choices,and those choices are to be chose wisely to ensure a desirable result.Somehow not all the choices can be made easily,sometimes unknown forces make u choose something that u hated the most.e end?undesirable changes.

Ar-Ra’d : 11 Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until they change it themselves (with their own souls).

    Based on e verse above,regardless u want it or not,changes still have to be made.and those changes aren’t changes that will lead to destruction,but changes to improvement.Even though i said sometime changes couldn’t be made due to unknown forces,do not trust my words 100 percent.We put our hopes to change not on anyone(ur gf ,ur bf,me) nor anything else(ur materials thing),but on Allah s.w.t solely. Well,i try to get straight to the point,if e forces that hold us back from making a wise decision exist,how can we choose a wise decision ?.It depends. Example in fiqh through the concept of Al-Aqd there are 2 performer the buyer and seller and generally their decision hold by 2 principles of Aq’d ; principle of freedom and principle of consent.When the principle of consent or freedom is being violated due to enforcement, e result could be consider valid or invalid.But majority consider it as invalid due to principles violation.and later a correction or option will exist.So,in life if bad choices that u have made was without ur intention, try to change those as much as u can if it’s not to late,because others can’t control u,they just can advice u,guide u and sometimes destruct u.just be urself at e end of e day and change for good.InsyaAllah.=)

    For the 1st time i’m writing this..huhu..it is just not me but i’m to bored and suddenly have a little thought of writing the blog.At e moment i’m sitting on e comfort blue chair,not at my home,in cyber cafe near section3 maju bistro.This morning i watched my team Italy fought lousily against spain,with heavy eyes watching a stupid game,i really wasted my sleeping time,bagus lagi kalau tahajud.Well it seems, italy couldn’t play the way they used to before euro,nothing to grieve about because it’s football.sometimes u win sometimes u lose.ntahlar,i’m not sure what i goin to write but here it goes.
    Yesterday(sunday 22/06/08),i’ve entered futsal comp with my spaniard(our jersey is spain’s) team(hehe), my teammate dak2 seksyen 3 (shazwan,shafiq,syaznee,mus,kembar, and our manager fathi) and guess what my role is? for sure goalkeeper.Actually i was quite comfort being futsal goalkeeper compared to normal football goalkeeper(pretty bad).So my role was..heh..as i’ve been told by them,’terbang je sana sini’.I did actually ‘terbang sana sini’ but when there wasn’t a ball directly going to the goal…poyo je time tu .Bout the game,My team played quite well, we were on top of our group (consist of four teams),we won the first game by 4-0,second one was a slight one 2-1 and draw against the runner-up in the group 2-2.We make it to 2nd round and it’s the last stage for us in comp.It was a regrettable goal which i let the ball went into the goal when i could save it,i take all the blame even though they said it wasn’t my fault at all.the end,It was a great experience even though we don’t make it to the final.end of story.E comp make me thought of german’s famous philosopher words,NIetzshe ‘Whatever that don’t kill me makes me feel stronger’.E comp is just a game,lose doesnt mean it’s e end of e day,it was a starting point for my team to play a better football.For me, it means we must strive harder to achieve something…Being in the comfort zone without progress is same as u’re already dead.Life indicate progress , growth ,improvement , developement or whatever it means,it indicate 1 thing to bring a person ,people , human to better or higher level as concept of progress mentioned in Surah an-noor,verse 17  "And Allah has made you grow out of the earth as a growth".
    By the way,i’m using a simple example of my daily life activities to explain what it means by growth or improvement,because many of us just don’t understand the concept,they are living the same way as they were 10 years ago.Maybe it was a hard move to change due to undesirable causes,but still changes to better thing need to be made.Stop talking and act.Thomas A. Edison once said,‘people judged u by what u do ,not what you said.So if you keep saying u can on this an that,u’re actually a definite loser.be true to urself and change!.end of my words,

P/S:sorry for any improper flow of writing and my grammatical errors.give comments yar.=)